Allowing yourself to feel

Surrendering to Grief: Allowing Yourself to Feel Last night, I listened to a podcast that really struck a chord with me. It wasn’t about physical pain, but emotional and mental pain—the kind that comes from grief. The speaker said something profound: it’s not love, but pain, that truly changes us. That hit home for me. Today, Idris left for a business trip, and the thought of being alone in the apartment terrified me. It’s strange because, in the past, I would have loved the idea. I would’ve spent the evening listening to Bollywood songs and enjoying the freedom of not having to cook. But now, it’s so different. The things that used to bring me comfort feel almost impossible. The weight of my grief is so heavy that even the simplest pleasures seem daunting. Thankfully, I have Maahir. I’ll be staying with him tonight, and I’ve realized that’s perfectly okay. There was a time when I would have pushed myself to stay alone, to prove that I could handle it. But after listening to the podcast, I’ve decided it’s okay to surrender to my feelings. It’s okay to let my pain win sometimes. There’s no need to feel guilty about seeking comfort from those around us. So what if I’m a grown adult? Right now, my mind and heart are in a place where logic doesn’t apply, and that’s fine. If you’re grieving or in pain, it’s okay to let yourself feel it fully. Don’t fight your emotions. Surrender to them. Let your mind and body rest where they need to, and allow yourself the grace to heal in your own time.