Living in the Eye of the Storm

Today, I want to share, in simple language, what grief truly feels like. It’s an overwhelming experience, and for anyone who has lost a person they love, it can be hard to explain the depth of that pain. But if you’ve ever seen concentric circles, that’s the best way I can describe it. Right now, I feel like I’m stuck in the center of the innermost circle—trapped with no breaks or spaces to escape. There’s no room to set myself free. The weight of grief is so heavy that I have no energy to move beyond this space. Things that never used to faze me now feel impossible. The confidence I once had has vanished, leaving behind an overwhelming sense of helplessness. I perpetually feel like there’s a weight on my chest, making it hard to breathe. It’s as though I’m suffocating under the pressure, unable to find relief. If you’re grieving, this feeling is normal. The weight, the exhaustion, the lack of confidence—it’s all part of the process. Grief almost feels surreal, like you’re living in a fog, floating in a trance where nothing seems real or tangible. For me, it feels like I’m perpetually stuck in this haze, and while I know there’s a way out, right now, I can’t find the energy or the will to break free. This is what grief does—it holds you tight, pulls you inward, and makes it hard to imagine life beyond the pain. But if you’re experiencing this, know that you’re not alone. These feelings, as suffocating as they are, are a part of healing. And while it may not feel like it now, there will come a time when the circles start to expand, giving you the space to breathe again. For now, it’s okay to sit in the center, to feel the weight, and to take each moment as it comes.