Finding Calm in the Plateau of Emotion

Finding Calm in the Plateau of Emotion Sana wanted to be in a state of euphoria. Her heart carried so much hurt that even a tinge of happiness—just a small flicker of joy—was enough. That little lift meant the world to her. I feel the same way too. Lately, nothing seems to give me that sense of happiness. Life continues, but the joy that once felt natural feels distant, almost muted. I’ve realized this is what happens when emotions plateau. When grief, loss, or trauma stretch your heart to its limits, it flattens your highs as well as your lows. The nervous system protects you by keeping you steady, even if steady feels neutral—or numb. People sometimes see me and think I’m spaced out. Arrogant. Distracted. These are the words that were often used to describe Sana too. And yet, the truth is far simpler—and far more human: we are just coping. We are surviving, trying to protect ourselves while the world continues around us. There is no arrogance, no indifference. Just endurance. I am learning to accept this. To believe that this is okay. That feeling muted, disconnected, or even empty at times doesn’t mean I am broken. It doesn’t mean I am failing. It just means my heart is protecting itself, holding on, carrying forward despite the pain. Sana knew the wisdom in small moments of relief, in fleeting happiness, in the little sparks that remind you life can still reach you. And now, I am learning the same lesson: it is okay to feel this way. It is okay for life to be quiet, for emotions to plateau, for survival to come first.